It's a damn cold night...

Forgiving is love's toughest work, and love's biggest risk. To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.
いつか失ってしまうのかな。薄れてゆく笑顔と君を守りたい。
-- D-technolife

If fate is a wheel, then we are the sand that is crushed between the cogs.

Don't judge a life by one difficult season.

独自并不代表孤单，在一群人中狂笑着有时更寂寞。
-- 吴庆康

At times it may not even seem rational, but the heart has a computing ability that is far more accurate and far more precise than anything within the limits of rational thought.
-- Deepak Chopra
于是我让孤独更孤独，有一种不是悲伤的悲伤，才是刻骨铭心的悲伤。
Grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love.
-- St Francis.
People's actions are influenced by their expectations. People respond not just to what is happening now, but to what they anticipate will happen in the future.
-- Sloman
不管你会不会忘了我，我只想告诉你一个秘密。
--《不能说的·秘密》

Every action generates a force of energy that returns to us in like kind.
-- Deepak Chopra

The furthest distance in the world is not between life and death but when I stand in front of you yet you don't know that I love you.
-- Tagore
Do do not worry about tomorrow; it will have enough worries of its own. There is no need to add to the troubles each day brings.
-- Matt 6:34

まだ不器用に笑うね まだ悲しみが似合うから
キミに降る痛みを 拭ってあげたい すべて I for you
-- I For You

the optimistic pessimist

supposedly an adult, she thinks like an adult (too much, if you ask me). deep inside, she is nothing but a little girl, with her little lofty dreams and ideals. and oops, she is breaking them, one by one.
more often than not, she is just an angsty emo kid.

she is only but
a passer-by,

an onlooker,
a walking shadow.

and this girl can't stop writing.

she stalks

|| cyn bea bao zou mel ||
|| joan weepz ||
|| blockc yeanching lehia kexi zhenlin horace alvin dina sandra becca tzehee ||
|| cruzteng peifen dasmondkoh ||
|| xiaozhu xiaogui sunxiezhi ashin kangyong ||
|| derrick jinglun stefsun natho lawrencewong ||
|| feliciachin joannepeh jeanetteaw sharonaw ||
|| xiaohan hyr chimkang mingde dannyyeo ||
|| xuyunling alvinology mrbrown esther ||
|| drbondar psychdigest ||
|| kfdrawing iwrotethisforyou thingsweforget ||

After all, what is in the past but what we choose to remember? They can choose not to hide it, to take what's broken, to feel the pain and know that it will heal. They know where happiness lies, not in a cave or a country, but in love and the freedom to give and take what has been there all along.
-- The Bonesetter's Daughter

she watches on

Others desire to experience the blessedness of giving, but we often frustrate them by refusing their help.


“你有心事吗？”
“或许有一天，我会告诉你吧。”
--《不能说的·秘密》

she holds on

　Memories were also a way of looking in a mirror, but it was a jagged mirror of broken glass, one that cast imperfect reflections. Like shards, these memories drew blood.

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she never gets

永远不会交的功课 || 永远不会实现的愿望

|| you ||

Responsibility means not blaming anyone or anything for your situation, including yourself... Whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment are precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a hidden meaning behind all events, and this hidden meaning is serving your own evolution.
-- Deepak Chopra

she thanks

Designer : Wei Jun
Brushes : Deviantart - Spy Glass

I don't know, I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I'm a pair of eyes and ears, and I'm just trying to stay safe and make sense of what's happening. I know what to avoid, what to worry about.I'm like those kids who live with gunfire going off around them. I don't want pain. I don't want to die. I don't want to see other people around me die. But I don't have anything left inside me to figure out where I fit in or what I want. If I want anything, it's to know what's possible to want.
-- The Bonesetter's Daughter

Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1

Friday, December 31, 2004
withers away @ 11:30 pm

so much happened in these days when i didnt blog.. shall attempt to blog everything..
went to class chalet frm mon to wed.. turnout was quite pathetic.. i tink i was the only one right from the start to the very end.. haiz.. but still, it was quite fun:) i enjoyed it heehee.. but none of the 1st intake came back.. ok if u count pin and sum, yes.. and joanie couldnt stay overnight.. mb in genting.. haiz..
mon when i reached just on time i was the 1st one there. expected. den karen came. den barney. so we decided to go his house first since it was so near. pin came along too. den more ppl came and we decided to check in finally.. we were v bored.. me and karen were waiting for yang.. coz yang=mahjong haha.. so we survived on mahjong and cards most of the time.. mj slept the earliest, then karen and clare slept.. barney had training the next day so he slept relatively earlier than us.. left yan chuan, yang, xuan, sishan, pin and me in the hall just talking cock. it was fun haha.. and we talked cock till 5am. pin slept ard 4 in the rm coz he remembered he had presentation the next day. oh well we rock man. all the way to 5 haha. and everyone was falling aslp except for me. still slept in the end, sitting on the couch. everyone had weird sleeping positions coz we slept in the hall except for those who slept early. kept waking up in betw to change position..
woke up at abt 10, watched mvp and made yan chuan buy breakfast for us.. well i dunno how we managed to spend the rest of the day man.. arcade? haha.. more ppl came and more ppl left.. we had dinner outside at pastamania instead of bbq.. the rain spoilt everything.. mr tan came too.. was nice talking abt everything.. in the end, sum, yang, joanne, pin and me were left.. sum was so disgusting!! he refused to bathe!! yux.. haha.. spent an enjoyable nite.. didnt get to see much of yang though.. he went to slp early coz he's tired.. i stayed up the whole nite again till 5 coz i needed to wake joanne and yang up to go for band prac.. was alone for some time.. den went to slp.. nice slp..
but next day had to wake up relatively early.. bleah.. needed to check out.. watched mvp again.. spent a nice time out wif them.. eh.. den went to barney's house to stone until mum asked me to go back.. hehe i forgot i was in pasir ris.. slept the whole journey home..
these few days im at home slacking like hell.. haha.. nothing to do!
really glad mervyn's well and alive.. first time death was staring so close to someone i know.. phew.. we were stunned man..
oh yes.. happy new year!! hahaz.. the new year's gonna start soon.. new challenges await us.. first thing up is orientation.. hope i dun screw it up..

It's something Mystical

Sunday, December 26, 2004
withers away @ 11:35 pm

oh baby why would you hurt me so long
please let me know
nan guo shi ni liu gei wo de xian suo

It's something Mystical

Saturday, December 25, 2004
withers away @ 10:16 pm

im back! my ah ma's place is absolutely fantastic.. never did notice how nice the place was though its just a little kampong.. guess its coz its a habit to go back there once every yr but its the 1st yr im celebrating christmas there.. and next yr is the 1st yr im not going back to celebrate cny.. my ah ma's place is completely stress-free.. omg if i could just stay there and not come back man haha.. nothing to worry about there coz all i do is idle all day haha.. but this yr quite rushed lah.. but still enjoyable.. just sitting down watching vcd or tv, looking at kids of all ages crawling or walking or fighting or wailing or sleeping or drooling all over the place, having conversations with relatives about stuff that dun really matter.. haha relaxing sia..
by the time we reached it was midnight.. so didnt go to my ah ma's place first.. just slept in my aunt's place.. oh yes my cousin's baby son is shoooo cute!! haha.. my dad loves him man.. woke up quite late the next morning.. went for.. erm brunch.. den went to my ah ma's place.. den went in my dad's car all over malacca.. ate a&w.. nice! hmm den back to ah ma's place.. bathed in 5min and went to church.. it was damn packed.. coz the whole kampong is there.. (whole kampong's catholic btw) by the time we reached there was no place in the church compound.. so stood outside.. well the whole clearing in front of the church is full of ppl by the time mass started.. stood the whole of 2h at the same spot.. legs were damn tired after tt.. oh yah after mass there was fireworks! haha so nice!
after mass went back to ah ma's place to eat.. erm dinner? at 10.30pm.. v lively and all.. coz all my aunts came down.. with a whole lot of children haha.. 5 cars sia.. den at around midnight we went to some place.. alot of ppl.. traffic jam.. its a whole estate where ppl decorate their houses damn nicely with lights and all.. they just open their houses and let u go in to take photo or wadeva.. my 1st time there.. nice.. got fireworks again haha.. and firecrackers and what-nots.. by the time we went back home to slp it was 2am.. haha..
woke up at 7+ today.. cousin was still aslp beside me.. bleah how i wish i could continue slping then.. haha.. went for breakfast.. uncle was practically stuffing us with food.. den we were on our way back to sg.. haha.. den slacked the day away..
oh yes.. merry christmas ppl!

It's something Mystical

Wednesday, December 22, 2004
withers away @ 10:32 pm

hou niao by s.h.e.
chu hai kou yi jing bu yuan
wo diu zhe kong ping xu yuan
hai yu tian lian cheng yi xian
zai sha zhou dui ni mai yuan

lu hui hua bai mang yi bian
ai guo ni duan zan ting liu de rong yan
nan fang de dong tian

wo de xin que wu fa shi guo jing qian
ni mi shi ai qing de na yi zhang lian
guo jing shuo de yong yuan
sui zhe zhang chao bu jian
bian cheng wo ji yi li de ming xin pian

ni de ai fei hen yuan
xiang hou niao kan bu jian
zai shi di de shui mian
na shang xin luan cheng yi bian

ni de ai fei hen yuan
xiang hou niao ji jie bian qian
wo han lei mian xiang zhe bei bian

ni de ai fei hen yuan
xiang hou niao kan bu jian
wo zhan zai he an bian
bei shu cong ge li xiang nian

ni de ai fei hen yuan
xiang hou niao ji jie bian qian
ni wang bei
xiang nan shuo zai jian

It's something Mystical

Tuesday, December 21, 2004
withers away @ 11:20 pm

hey ppl im going m'sia soon! haha.. frm 23rd to 25th.. so gonna spend xmas eve in my grandma's house and xmas day in sg. haha..
today i managed to force myself to do maths.. finally at the finale ex.. damn lah i better finish it tml.. doing it so damn slowly.. hahaz..

It's something Mystical

Monday, December 20, 2004
withers away @ 10:40 pm

haha today busking! not too bad lah actually.. had quite a lot of fun.. shall start frm the beginning..
met up wif mb and bea first to eat lunch.. den walked to wheelock place.. in the underpass we saw xuan and jan wif cans.. frm the same "do somethingood" organization.. haha.. den we took a turn n saw mj n 4 other gals busking! haha.. harmoc.. they were wearing sch u.. haha mj wearing full grey loh! siao.. haha.. oh den we were told tt we r having the same venue as brass band.. sounded weird to me.. hmm den we went up n who did we see? yang! haha.. wad a surprise haha.. so we used the same venue alternately.. every 1/2h.. hahaz.. oh den we also saw sishan karen and jasmine haha.. today is meet njcians day man haha..
oh yes smth v impt. juz when we started to sing, someone so familiar walked past.. den she stopped, got money (which i believe is a 50-dollar note since its blue.. unless im colour blind) and stuffed it into the can in front of us. oh my we were all juz staring at her man.. all stunned and shocked.. den we said thank you to her.. haha oli! fancy meeting her just when we started man! haha busking isnt bad after all! started to tink if i could meet sly too haha.. but of coz cannot lah.. dun tink he has the time to go orch now haha..
oh yes throughout there were ppl taking photos of us.. weird.. den some uncle came and gave us durians to eat while we were resting! haha.. so funny..
oh yah el came!! hoho.. actually mel and cyn wanted to come too.. but in the end nv..
today is a happy day:)
ru guo wo yu jian ni shi yi chang bei ju
wo xiang wo zhe bei zi zhu ding yi ge ren yan xi
zui hou zai yi ge ren man man de hui yi
mei you le guo qu
wo jiang wang shi chou li
dui bu qi by jay

It's something Mystical

Saturday, December 18, 2004
withers away @ 11:02 pm

did cip wif mb today for the last time.. not bad.. just that an irritating boy came with his friend to disturb us. damn idiot make me feel so violated. bleahz. he came over and said he's lost so we told him to go to the customer service counter. he refused and pestered us to lend him our handphones. like real we will lend him man. den he started to tug our clothes and wadeva. he still hit my bum loh! idiot boy. lucky he went away before we both would slap him man.
oh yes i just rmbred.. tour guide in thailand gave us this qn.. i gave up halfway working out haha.. shall post it here..
u have $100 to buy exactly 100 chickens. 3 types of chickens to buy: large medium small. large ones cost $6 each, medium $3 each, small 10 cents each. how many of each chicken should u buy?
and life is a road and i wanna keep going
love is a river i wanna keep flowing
life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
i'll be there when the world stops turning
i'll be there when the storm is through
in the end i want to be standing
at the beginning with you
at the beginning by donna lewis & richard marx

It's something Mystical

Friday, December 17, 2004
withers away @ 10:25 pm

hahaz oh wells.. oh wed went for cip myself again.. the aunties all so nice to me!! haha see me alone den let me hide in the rm and rest and eat their tidbits haha.. for a while lah.. den thurs slack at home.. today got guit prac so missed class outing.. well well not too bad coz im not playing the guitar! haha im singing.. n bea and mb have decided to conveniently forget to bring their guitar on tt day.. they cant catch up.. well neither could i, with the chords and all.. we shld juz stick wif singing man.. haha.. but i still tink the busking will turn out quite disastrous.. hope no one i noe will be there looking haha..

It's something Mystical

Tuesday, December 14, 2004
withers away @ 10:20 pm

went out wif bea, el and mel today.. hoho mel did come.. finally hahaz.. had a great time.. tho tiring lahz.. shopping is always tiring haha.. the time at the neoprint machine is damn funny!! hahaz we really rofl.. literally.. the machine was so damn fast, we had no time to change our positions, no time to finish putting up the background.. so at the last photo bea was just colouring the background like mad.. me and el just died half sitting half lying on the floor laughing non-stop.. after bea finished with the background (or rather the time ran out) she joined us.. den mel realised they gave more time for us to finish up the background and write stuff.. haha that was when we got up again but still couldnt stop laughing.. haha cmi ah.. but it was real fun lah.. how i wish cyn and mb were there too.. bleah i wonder when we can take a neoprint tgt again.. if mel goes to uk next yr.. haiz..
me gonna miss class outing!! *sobz* so sad.. coz fri got guit prac.. bleahz..
hoho and joan is back nyoooo.. yeah.. haha missed ya:)
suddenly remembered the existence of this song.. and how bea plays it on the piano.. haha.. nice song..
forever love
forever dream
afureru omoi dake ga
hageshiku setsunaku jikan wo umetsukusu
oh tell me why
all I see is blue in my heart
forever love by x japan

It's something Mystical

Monday, December 13, 2004
withers away @ 10:36 pm

ytd something really stupid happened.. bleahz mel!!! how can u not check ur passport man.. *faints* nvm actually quite expected hahaz.. ok lah ok lahz.. ytd we went out coz mel was out to s'pore.. who knows ended up she couldnt come coz her passport was expired.. dotz.. haha.. nvm going out tml wif them again.. haha...
did cip alone today.. hmm not too bad lahz.. bought xmas cards too.. should post them quick.. hahaz
always thought this is a nice song.. but never really knew the lyrics of the whole song.. lazy me never go find... now coz this is one of the songs for busking so tada i have the lyrics! haha..
ni de xin qing zong zai fei
shen me shi dou yao qu zhui
xiang zhua zhu yi dian an wei
ni zong shi xi huan zai ren qun zhong pai hui
ni zui hai pa gu dan de zi wei

ni de xin na me cui
yi peng jiu hui sui
jing bu qi yi dian feng chui
ni de shen bian zong shi yao xu duo ren pei
ni zui hai pa mei tian de tian hei

dan shi tian zong hui hei
ren zong yao li bie
shei ye bu neng yong yuan pei shei
dan gu dan de zi wei
shei dou yao mian dui
bu zhi shi ni wo
hui gan jue dao pi bei

dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shei
ni xiang bu xiang zhao ge ren lai pei
ni de kuai le shang bei
zhi you wo neng ti hui
rang wo zai pei ni zou yi hui

It's something Mystical

Saturday, December 11, 2004
withers away @ 11:07 pm

oh wells will blog abt my thailand trip here.. wont blog abt everything coz i cant really rmbr everything.. digi cam and video cam all in dad's rm. lazy to take to help me recall haha..
i did write some stuff during the trip tho.. shall reproduce it here..
5th dec. sun. 9.56pm sg time.
ohoho im on the flight on the way to bangkok! waiting for the entertainment thingy to start.. hoho.. oh wells on the way to the airport i was alr missing everyone in sg.. haha havent left and im alr missing all of u out there! hahaz.. cousings came to send us there.. heard qilixiang in the car.. oh i see the food coming! oh well somehow i feel so isolated from the sg world.. didnt feel like this when i went to taiwan last yr.. must be because of the "no hp syndrome".. haha.. [listening to bon jovi-its my life now.. haha reminds me of sly haha] im on my way to a place unknown, somewhere away from what im familiar with. its like taking time off from work and relaxing, not bothering to think abt anything back in sg. ok gtg to eat..
6th dec. mon. 8.55pm local time.
shld be 9.55 in sg now.. on the coach to chiang mai now.. overnight coach sia.. listening to some thai song now.. as tho i noe wad im listening to.. all the songs sound the same to me haha.. oh wells today as usual couldnt really wake up.. by the time we reach our hotel last night in bangkok it was alr past midnight.. morning call at 6.30 today.. and wad.. i had a v springy bed to myself.. like shit.. creaked like some old hinges everytime i move. glad it didnt give way haha.. but i still slept.. like i give a damn haha.. mum as usual couldnt slp.. say that my bed kept creaking haha.. dad must be like me slp like pig.. morning call i didnt even bother to pick up tho i was right beside the phone n it had a terribly loud ring.. haha meant to wake up pigs like me.. lucky these few days got hols so didnt experience traffic jams.. it was the king's bdae ytd and so today is hol too.. ok shld juz slp..
10th dec. 6.55pm sg time.
less than 1/2h later i'll be reaching sg liao.. didnt write after mon coz i fell sick.. only sorta got better today.. and so my mum has concluded that i cant go overseas uni coz i will juz fall sick when its cold.. haiz.. now my nose and ears are blocked.. bleahz.. hiya all bcoz im still sick.. well lets try to recall wad happened the past few days.. tues: when we reached chiang mai it was still damn early.. like 5am.. waited for hotel rm for damn long since ppl dun check out at 5.. was damn cold on the coach.. everyone was freezing.. kept waking up periodically to change my position coz some part of me will get numb.. spent the afternoon visiting shops and stuff.. gems, bags, umbrellas, handicrafts blah blah blah.. wad did we do at nite.. lemme think.. hiya cant rmbr haha.. wed: went to chiang rai i tink.. damn cold lah.. but still hot.. it was like cold wind plus sun.. n i fell sick.. took a boat on the river.. went to laos.. erm yah.. thurs: back in chiang mai liaoz.. went to some temple.. climbed 306 steps to reach it.. went to all the hilly places.. visit the tribes and stuff.. ok tribes sound weird but cant tink of a proper word now.. went to see poppy plants too.. den took domestic flight back to bangkok. the airport sux man. queued up so damn long. flight delayed. bleahz. back in bangkok we went to see four-faced buddha. wanted to shop badly haha.. mum wanted to buy stuff.. so went to some night market ourselves by taxi.. came back ard midnight i tink.. fri: went for more shopping before we had to leave for sg.
hoho tt's abt it.. i tink i blogged too damn much haha.. shld stop..
sg idol has really gotten into me haha.. the lyrics of i dream. think its a really nice song. personally like sly's version better.. haha..
In my mind
I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirit�s there where eagles dare to fly

In my heart
There�s a spark
That can light the world around me
And open door where I am sure dreams are

Doesn�t matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
�Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart
Just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that�s in me
I dream
I dream

There�s a time
In your life
When the odds are so against you
There�s no defeat if all you keep is pride
First or last
Slow or fast
There�s a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on when worlds have come apart

Doesn�t matter rich or poor
All the things you�ve done before
�Cause the race is all about believing in yourself

I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart
Just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that�s in me
I dream
I dream

Of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed
Only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone

It's something Mystical

withers away @ 9:38 pm

oh wells before i blog abt my trip.. guess there's something i haf to do..
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. kit/huli
2. ps
3. dajie
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. kitsune. n i tink ttz all haha
2.
3.
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. eh.. my height?
2. able to provide a listening ear
3. sentimental
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. sentimental
2. indecisive
3. bad-tempered
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
chinese.. erm.. teochew.. n erm.. teochew.. yah.. haha
FOUR THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. cockroaches
2. erm.. mum.. when she gets really angry
3. getting into trouble wif teachers
4. my own thoughts and imagination
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. specs
2. eh.. water? haha
3. time to reflect and think abt stuff
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. specs haha
2. clothes
3. earrings el bot for me! :)
FIVE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists):
1. jay
2. some random chinese pop singers.. wun bother to name every one
3. DeG
4. kagrra
5. ohyah the guy who sings the theme songs for winter sonata.. bleah forgot his name
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. ge qian by jay
2. hai pa by yanzi
3. akuro no oka by DeG
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. finish up my maths damn fast and do my cip and start *somehow* revising thru this yr's work [note: mission impossible]
2. do my best for syf. prac the songs. do well for the auditions. damn blackbird. argh
3. concentrate on stuff im supposed to concentrate on and not think and worry abt stuff im not supposed to think and worry abt
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. trust
2. understanding
3. a future
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. doing maths like mad
2. doing cip like mad
3. in the pink of health
THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. erm looks?
2. character
3. voice
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. control my thoughts
2. control others' thoughts
3. ah erm erm erm hiya duno lahz brain deadX_X
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. writing
2. reading
3. chatting
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. blog abt my thailand trip
2. finish reading the article on titanic in national geographic
3. eh eh eh.. now ah.. slack
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. teacher
2. psychologist/
3. eh.. accountant? haha
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. japan
2. europe
3. korea
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. havent decided nyo..
2.
3.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get a bf, get married, have kids. haha
2. oh the above are 3 things liao.. juz realized haha
3.
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR FACE THE CONSEQUENCES:
shant be bad so i shant write any name haha

It's something Mystical

Friday, December 10, 2004
withers away @ 10:49 pm

juz came back. im tired. terribly tired. and sick. thinking abt the stuff in sg isnt really helping. oh wells. will blog more abt the trip next time. should juz go n slp. well maybe it isnt enough.

It's something Mystical

Saturday, December 04, 2004
withers away @ 10:33 pm

been doing cip for these 2 days.. quite boring sia.. but slack lah.. even the librarian recognizes us.. we either hide and read books meant for young children, or sing while we shelf books. oh today a young boy was climbing the trolley meant for books.. in our attempt to stop him, he somehow got the idea that we would catch hold of him and so he just let go of his grip on the trolley n fell right onto the floor. next moment he was wailing and his mum was comforting him.. everyone stared at us as tho we were the ones we made him fall.. lucky the mum never mistake us.. haha..
oh wells leaving tml for thailand.. coming back on the 10th.. not a bad time to go overseas.. can try to get my mind off stuff in sg.. hols coming to an end pretty soon.. hate this kind of feeling.. sux..
ppl in sg take care..

It's something Mystical

Thursday, December 02, 2004
withers away @ 10:56 pm

did cip for 6h straight.. gosh was tiring.. haha but ok lahz.. bleah.. wad's there to say? nothing.. just seem to be as busy as sch days.. but more time to think about stuff i shld think about.. hmmm

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withers away @ 1:21 am

gotta type again for the 3rd time coz of my damn com.. nvm.. shall keep things short then..
woke up damn early coz of guitar meeting at 8.. bleah.. gonna busk in dec..
went out wif hito to eat lunch at pasta fiesca.. bea and mb didnt come in the end.. bleah.. den went to ps to catch the incredibles.. before the movie started we had like 2h to slack.. so went to times to read comics haha.. oh yah mb u noe the long legs soft toy thing.. haha ps got leh.. haha.. oh wells the movie was funny!! hoho.. den went home..
spent the whole night watching s'pore idol.. expected taufik to win haha.. he'll look better on world idol coz he can really sing better than sly.. but if sly works at it, esp his pitching, im sure he can do it too:)
wo he wo zui hou de jue jiang
wo jin shuang shou jue dui bu fang
xia yi zhan shi bu shi tian tang
jiu suan shi wang
bu neng jue wang
jue jiang by mayday

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